Friday, February 4, 2011, 1:37 PM
You know that feeling, neh neh, that feeling, where you just don't wanna talk?
"Hey! How are you?"
STFU
"Omg, I saw this cute guy...."
STFU
"You're so stupid"
Thanks. Now STFU.
Yeah. Those kinda phases where you're just a horrible person.
Is it just me?
Am I just a terrible person?
No. I'm kidding.
I won't seriously go STFU at everyone.
But it's the truth, how I really feel.
Makes me wonder why I hate people that much.
Then again, I don't really hate anyone.
I love a LOT of people.
Fuck.
I'm mental.
Labels: complaints, drabbles, life, random
Sunday, July 4, 2010, 10:24 AM
omg, I'm going soft. It's not my fault I swear. I dont know what happened.Yes, this is me, posting at 1.34am because I'm disheartened. Why, i dont know fo shit.
Woah whaat, I found my old writing book. Here's an untitled story, by yours truly : -
The day I fell for you, was the day my life started it's painting. The yellow, the green, the pink, the blue. They started to fill the once blank paper. My feeling were quiet, satisfied by just looking from across the room. I was you were my classmates, even if we didn't know each other.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started singing in the shower. The love songs, confessions of my feelings that I could only tell the shower head. Alas, I grew impatient waiting, for you to talk to me. I realised I wanted to at least be your friend. I talked to you, listened to your stories, dreams, aspirations. I listened tentatively, never missing a word, never forgetting your voice.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started smiling to myself. In the oddest moments, a smile, a chuckle would creep out of my mouth. People thought I was insane, I knew I was in love. Your smile began to take over my sanity, I could not focus no matter how hard I tried. And that, was when you told me about her.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started thinking about my future. I would think about how I would grow up and be just the person you want me to be. You told me about how you met her, how you liked her and how she came to be, your girl. I nod and say "She's perfect for you." when I feel I could be better.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started worrying about the little things. About how I walked, how I talked in front of you. How my hair is always messy and how my laugh is so retarded. I wanted to look, act and be the best of me, for you. But no matter how hard I tried, I could never replace her. I looked in the mirror and realised, I really couldn't beat her. She was pretty and smart, charming and funny. I realised I ought to give up.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started lying to myself. Like how I told myself I could deal with just admiring from afar. But then I found myself being one of your best friends. This lead to you telling me about how wondrous she is. The biggest lie I told myself? The one about me being able to forget you.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started believing in love. I tried my best to avoid you, hoping my feelings would just fade away. My plan was to not think about how you told me you could trust me, not think about how you said I was one of your best friends ever, not to think about how you didn't have to hide anything from you. Honestly, I wish you did. Countless times I wanted to tell you how I felt, but my courage never came through.
I do not know if I would ever tell you, but for now my heart is screaming "I Love You". Just waiting for you to hear it.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started singing in the shower. The love songs, confessions of my feelings that I could only tell the shower head. Alas, I grew impatient waiting, for you to talk to me. I realised I wanted to at least be your friend. I talked to you, listened to your stories, dreams, aspirations. I listened tentatively, never missing a word, never forgetting your voice.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started smiling to myself. In the oddest moments, a smile, a chuckle would creep out of my mouth. People thought I was insane, I knew I was in love. Your smile began to take over my sanity, I could not focus no matter how hard I tried. And that, was when you told me about her.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started thinking about my future. I would think about how I would grow up and be just the person you want me to be. You told me about how you met her, how you liked her and how she came to be, your girl. I nod and say "She's perfect for you." when I feel I could be better.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started worrying about the little things. About how I walked, how I talked in front of you. How my hair is always messy and how my laugh is so retarded. I wanted to look, act and be the best of me, for you. But no matter how hard I tried, I could never replace her. I looked in the mirror and realised, I really couldn't beat her. She was pretty and smart, charming and funny. I realised I ought to give up.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started lying to myself. Like how I told myself I could deal with just admiring from afar. But then I found myself being one of your best friends. This lead to you telling me about how wondrous she is. The biggest lie I told myself? The one about me being able to forget you.
The day I fell for you, was the day I started believing in love. I tried my best to avoid you, hoping my feelings would just fade away. My plan was to not think about how you told me you could trust me, not think about how you said I was one of your best friends ever, not to think about how you didn't have to hide anything from you. Honestly, I wish you did. Countless times I wanted to tell you how I felt, but my courage never came through.
I do not know if I would ever tell you, but for now my heart is screaming "I Love You". Just waiting for you to hear it.
-END.
OH GOD THAT WAS EMBARRASSING TO TYPE. I was all "I'mma open the book and whatever page I turn to, I'll put the story on my blog. WITHOUT proof-reading it." BADIDEAWTF. Oh, and I can't read my handwriting omg. My penmanship is so awful.
Ok, was I one sappy emo HS kid or what?! Yeah man. And this is one my works that has never seen an audience. So, what did ya guys think? I've a few more in my book. HAHA. Pwnd. Retyping it, I realised alot of it didnt make much sense really. But hey, I was young and stupid. Dont blame me!
That was nostalgic. I suddenly have an urge to write again. Yes, even if my works are bad. It's just my way of expressing myself. I need to broaden my vocabulary though. Anyone got any nice novels I could borrow?
And it's 2.18am.
xoxo - miss me ♥
Labels: drabbles, life, random
