Thursday, September 10, 2009, 11:17 PM
Quick post because i'm late for tuition.
I dont know how, I dont know why but just watching one NEWS performance live, made me fall in love all over again and miss them oh so dearly. I just realised how much I need them as the support in my life. maybe some of you might think it's silly for me to say this, or maybe some might think it's a fangirl thing. of how an idol - or idols, can be so influential in ones life, but oh yes it can. in my tiny life that is.
NEWS - wait, just wait, I'll be someone one day. On when that day comes, you can say it's 50% because of you guys. but if I become a fail later on, i'ts also your fault. roflmao
So on to real life.
Results are out for some of my papers and heh. Not surprising that I didnt do so well (even if I studied my heart out)
so far,
BM - B3 (but I improved heh - it's an almost A)
EST - A1
Math - A1
Moral - A1
I already know my marks for paper 1 add math and now I know how much I fail. sigh. but then again, I failed the last time so.. maybe it's an improvement? idek too soon to tell. right, when telling us our marks she took a good chuck of our arms and applied much pressure. I have a blue-black now. heh thank you Pn Meg.
So going to school these few days have been - a waste of time. We go there, we talk, sleep and have fun (?) and duh no studying involved. I dont know why we bother. but I have to say im enjoying it for some reason. or maybe it's just cause today is a good day? idek.
You know what I miss? the times where I could go out whenever I liked and meet whoever I wanted to meet. I mean I miss talking to Heather and Clauds online for hours and hours. I miss hanging out with Bena, Ayu, Jufa and all of em. I miss bullying Rebecca whenever we hang out. I miss talking to Michelle about anything and everything. I miss the sleepovers, the shopping, to movies and the spazz. I'm still waiting for it all to come back. Please, come back.
I miss the time where I was oblivious of how money is so important and how I would just accept money my mama gave me rather than shoving it back to her knowing she's digging her last dollars for me.
I miss the time where I knew I was dumb and didnt give a damn about what I got.
I miss the time where I didnt think scholarships were such a necessity for me to aim for.
I miss the time where I wasnt so darn selfconcious and cared about what people thought about me.
I miss how I didnt care about anything but myself.
blah. This is me one a happy day. rofl wtf fail. haha.
Oh, and there's this weird dream I had yesterday that I can not get out of my mind. seriously, weird. but funny nontheless.
and I bid you farewell.
ps, Happy birthday Miza. Old woman.
